Wednesday, May 7, 2014
It's a pine forest at Mount Fuji.
The sky was clear at first and full of shine then it became cloudy, we almost get light rain...
Unfortunately, we couldn't reach Step 5 at Mount Fuji due to traffic at the weekend.
Well, it's not my point. I promise to write often and update my last trip. Since I already share my trips on my tumblr, I decided to make "Story of the Picture" from the photo that taken from my trip.
So this is the story...
Lately I realize, I almost lost my "me" side. Like the
I used to write and sketch often before.
I like to write a story since elementary school back then, I write detective story, family story and love story and poem sometimes. Until my Senior high school time, I made a novel called Journey to the Past and I still revised them during my College years.
Last year, before I got a job I also still write a short story about A Couple Friend : Hiara and Fabian.
Somehow, I still write but I think I lost my inspiration. Most of the time I don't know what to write.
Well, I miss the old me, when it's easy to write a poem in a beautiful language, or just write a story about something that I like.
I also realize, I became far from my dream become designer. I rarely sketch, I also lack of inspiration. Though now I still regularly design my own cloth.
I become a person with less leisure time. Most of my free day I used for rest and do some exercise so my body can be fit.
But I lost my inspiration, I lost my reason to write and sketch. Like those gloomy sky that full of cloud that block the sunshine. This now "thingy" blocked me from "My Old Me". I can't say I don't like what I've done right now. I'm happy, I travel more, I learn and I work to something that at least my other passion. But just, there's an empty room that I need to fill out.
Hopefully I can fill it the soonest.
Stay cheers and move forward.
Monday, May 5, 2014
Now I have a project to be more active post something.
Since I've been busy with my thesis 3 years ago, I rarely update my blog and tumblr.
I already start to be more update on tumblr by sharing my trip stories last year.
So far, last year I had three trips, Japan, HongKong and Ujung Kulon.
I was enjoying that trip and I'll update it to this Blog soon with different kind of point of view.
The soonest I could write it :)
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
It almost 4 years without any big problem.
He said sorry and shed a tears. The way he sorried, the way he shed a tear it's the sweetest goodbye.
I was just speechless when he explained why.
He said may be we were too cool with our relationship that's why finally we had a big gap.
Silence in my heart.
I just accept it without calculated how deep my heart will broke.
Yes, he who the first initiate this break up thing but...
If I want to I might be push him.. but I didn't..
I can't.. my heart can even speak a word..
I have no faith to make us stay still
Like I always said to my heart, that he's not strong enough for me
Yeah, I always have a doubt for him
I even pray to God, I mention break up things if he wasn't good enough for me
So this might be an answer of my prayer.
Hopefully today I'll be stronger than yesterday.
It hurts, I won't fool my self with saying it's okay.
It hurts enough, but I know everything's going to be okay.
Because I believe that this is the best for us.
I believe this is an answer to my prayer to God.
The voyage is over, we both weren't strong enough to continue this voyage. At least it was wonderful voyage. And now I pulled up at the port waiting for another voyage.
I can't wait to see my heart healing, it will take time but sure it won't be long. Amen.
I don't like when people buzzing around and pity on me...
I really need someone say "May be he's not for you. You'll find another great voyage"
Saturday, November 17, 2012
I don't casually watching historical drama, I don't find any interest of it but its the exception for now. Because the only one Korean actor that I adore so much, Lee Min Ho took a role in this kind of Historical Drama named "Faith".
I'm not saying that this drama was great. It's just so-so to me. But, you know that so-so drama or cheesy drama or whatever they mocked at Korean Drama, they always give me some lessons.
Enough talking, these are the part that nudge me so much. When Lee Min Ho got angry to his Woman because his woman hide that she has been poisoned by antagonist role.
Man : Am I still that far away? That you don't feel the need to tell me these things? Am I still that far from you?
Woman : I knew you'd get mad.
Man : Do you still not know why I get mad?
Woman : If I told you, you'll run over there again and listen to them. Last time you did...(very rude things). This time, what would you have to do? Because of me, you've had to lower your head several times and be locked up. You're not someone who should be doing things like that.
Man : So, is that why... You're so far away?
Woman : (silent for sometimes) Wait! Don't turn around. Just listen. I'll ask one thing. Should I... Not go? Can I stay? Can't I?
Man : Even after being poisoned, how can you say that?
Woman : Then I'll ask you this way. The remaining days, day by day. I'm going to love you the way I want. Can you forget, once I'm gone? You must not live recklessly or sleep all the time. Don't be like that, and just forget it all, okay?
Man : Forget you?
Woman : Promise me you will
They're arguing to protect each other. The man get angry cause he's worry that much to his woman. And the woman, try to hide her pain to protect his man of doing reckless and rude thing.
Since, it just a script I don't know if that kind of love is really exist in reality. Until know I just believe something romantic is just on movie. I like romantic things, cheesy things but when it comes to me, it never suits me well. I even make laugh my boyfriend when he tried to tease me with compliment.
How about you? Does that kind of love exist? Are romantic things really exist?
And once more, this drama taught me, that whatever will be happen tomorrow or in the future. As a person, we shouldn't give up to try the best, to live to the fullest. Because we really never know what will happen tomorrow... So just doing your best so you never regret about yesterday.
Ahh... Nice to see Lee Min Ho in the last seen. So Manly with his bare beard.
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Friday, November 2, 2012
Sunday, May 13, 2012
Almost a year I didn't touch you... So sad :(
I already graduated last November, and i also already got a job since March.
What else? I have a new room, smaller and more expensive but in the center of Jakarta.
I'm happy... no not just happy.. I'm glad... I'm grateful... I'm blessed...
I'm planning to make another short story, in Indonesian may be.
But i don't know how long it takes, since I already have a job :D